~Nostalgia~

Someone with an umbrella

2011-01-26T17:41:00.004+08:00

Aww. It has been raining for the whole day. Did I get the mushy feeling again? Well, not really, maybe just a little =)
Recently, life is all about schools, sports activities, stay back, ah, you name it. And I thought lower 6 was busy. Have been devoting and revolving myself in these few things. It's true, I hardly have time to breathe! It's good though to have this rainy day when you're so busy. It sort of calm you a little.
Well, since school started, everything has changed. Changed rapidly and drastically. Jules has left. He has choosen to continue his journey there, I'm happy for him, I can sense that that's what he really wants to do =)Hmm, as for me, I'm still the same, perhaps add on some weight, and get chubb-ier! Everyone is pinching my cheeks now =p
Just in these one month time, someone I know has lost both of her parents. Owh, this definitely gives me something to think about. Life is always too short, too short to love, too short to know, and to short to care. Yesh, I have been repeating this to myself over and over again. Yet, sometimes, I still being a little ungrateful. I know, sooner or later, we're leaving this world, to the other side. It's just the matter of time. Someone told me before, death is not terrifying, it's just sad. Indeed, it's true.
That is why everytime I get upset, I'll get over it in times. It's because I know, life is too short to regret. I've choosen to embrace things with wide opened heart and arms now, because I know I only live once. I've choosen to love others too. That definitely includes family and friends. Somehow, I have built up a wall in my heart, a barrier. Sometimes, I'm afraid of that kind of lovey dovey feeling. It's like there's a great force of energy holding me back from feeling that way, the feeling of guilt? I don't know, am I afraid or it's still new for me. It's strange. I want to fall head over heels, but I just couldn't. I wouldn't let myself to do that, my heart doesn't allow me either.
Despite so, I'm still a firm holder of whatever meant to happen, it happens. When the time is right, it comes. I don't have to figure it out. I don't have to expect it, I don't have to chase for it. It's because, when the time comes, that's it. Your heart will be defeated and conquered by LOVE. I know, that's true. I know someone will help you to notice the rainbow after the rain, someone will guide you to think outside the box and someone will be waiting for you with a umbrella in the heavy down pouring rain. It's the kind of LOVE that'll stop you from feeling odd to be in love =)

Love,
Sha

Black and white

2010-11-26T20:13:00.002+08:00

A new skin for a new coming year, embracing with wide-opened arms :)

When life hits you

2010-07-16T18:00:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking of updating my blog. But em, then again, running out of words. Got a call from a friend yesterday. She was pretty torn apart with the disssion she has to make. Yea, that does sound a little bit like me. Life always has its way to get us. I mean, when you've just recovered from the wound that won't seem to heal, something from your past is back to haunt you again. Keeping you up all night long because of the bad dreams you have at night.

When you tried so hard to fit in, and has succeded, life gives you something you would die for from your past. Gosh, her sitiuation has just reminded me of myself. I'm always torn apart when it comes to decision. There's not much I can help, because when it comes to decision you can only consult, but not decide for them. At the end of the day, you're the one who takes control of your own life. Right?

Went for prefects' interview yesterday. Was rehearsing school anthem like over and over again as we afraid they might ask us to sing, which they did not. *My case* There were 4 teachers interviewing. Hah, it was rather spooky. Lol. They were pretty friendly to be honest, not like what I imagined earlier. I assumed it went pretty smoothly except that I didn't know who's the discipline teacher :P Still, I'm hoping for the post XD

I know my parents love sis and I dearly. But I didn't realize it is that much, so, much, they love us unconditionly. Well, I guess by knowing this fact, I've grown even more, mental wise. I know, I'll always be their little girl :) And I'm loving it!!

Yea, I'm happy with my life :)

X,
Sha

Hectic Life of Mine

2010-06-24T15:08:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the silence. I hardly have time for my own recently. Homework and notes are piling up for me to do. Yea,I guess this pre-u life isn't that easy anyway. Can't deny that I'm really tired and exciting at the same time. I can't wait to see where is this path leading me to, how I manage to go through all the little obstacles :)

These subjects are still new to me. Have to take more time to understand them. As for teachers, well, they're ok, not bad I guess. Except for one or two . Get along with classmates pretty well too. Still, sometimes I chose to be alone. I need some serenity after all :P

Just now we're all staying back for R&C activity. I am still blur what it's about. Uh, yea, I sensed racism in school,in the hall. *Sigh. I guess there's just certain issues that can't be changed. It's so common that I've already get used to it. Ah, people, you're 18!!! Grow up can you? Those younger students are even worse!

Yea, that's all for today, have to continue on my works!

#There're friends that'll wait for you at the pondok in the morning; Go to recess with you; Go to toilet together; Help you to photocopy the important form; Fly kisses to you when you're tired. They definitely make your school life BETTER#

X,
Sha

贪玩

2010-06-10T21:59:00.005+08:00

今天突然想用手机+华语写部落格。哈哈，感觉有点怪。

好咯，写也写了，我要睡了。晚安^^

X,
莎希拉
Sha

Semi-Freshy Back in School

2010-05-18T17:15:00.002+08:00

Finally, I received the letter to go back to school earlier than everyone expected. It's a good thing though. And so, I went to school on the the 13th of May. School was ok, but I'm not gonna deny that wearing school uniform is HOT!! Oh My God, and the weather is so terrible. It's simply annoying.

I have to stay in Bio 2 for a while until the Ministry of Education settle everything. Started our lesson today. Chemistry is not bad, Mr. Raja explained quite a lot of stuffs. Then, I get to know this Chinese guy, Elvis. And had a little conversation with Ting Tao. Well, they are both quite friendly. Get to know this Indian girl also, her name is Lalitha. She's pretty quiet and pay 100% when Mr. Raja is teaching.

En. Hussin gave us an essay to do. Well, it was ok. Have to copy all those information like so fast. Had to stay back for a little while because I didn't get to finish copy all it. It is sad, I mean, no one waits for you. Then you alone have to rush, pack, and walk all alone in the corridor.

Things are different now. I no longer have the friend to go to toilet with me every 35 minutes. I no longer have friends waiting for me in the Dewan-Terbuka. I waited, but they weren't there. They waited, but I wasn't there. It's hard to keep up when you're on your own and different way. It's just different. Now, we're supposed to wait at the tennis court before class starts. Nothing is the same anymore. Life is going to get very busy soon, ah, very tired. Haven't get used to it yet. Hope everything will be just fine.

Oh, En. Ramli is such a great counselor. He reads me. He gets me. Oh my god, I think I should go more for this kind of session. lol. At least I get to understand myself better. I think from him I know what I want for my future. I think law is no longer my field. Well, can't wait for more counseling programs!! I'm not sure whether we need to book or something. But, counseling is fun, good for your mind and soul. lol.

X,
Sha

Never Back Down

2010-05-05T11:28:00.002+08:00

It's a gloomy Wednesday morning for me. Went to school to see Mr. Ong. Sigh. I can't return to school until the early of June. Oh my.Didn't know that it could be so troublesome. There's nothing much I can do but wait. This feeling is kinda odd. It's like you're not being accepted. I shouldn't have applied for Matrix, should I? So, I have to home-study for this moment. Oh gosh, this is simply ridiculous. I don't even know what to feel right now.

Hmm, what's the feeling of going to school as a new student? With the the students staring at you like a total freak. No, I don't like it. I like the usual way. Go to school in a group, register, and life goes on. I guess it's going to be different, very different this year.

Cut my hair just now. It's short, real short. Learning to live with it. I chose comfort over cuteness in long hair. lol. It's all about choices. I've made mine. So, move on :)

-I'm too young to die if you're going to quit me-

X,
Sha

Under One Roof

2010-05-04T23:51:00.004+08:00

Staying up late tonight. Dad got to work at 2 am. He's sleeping now, so, it's my duty to wake him up at 1.30am. Again, silence during the night. It feels really good. Currently listening to Two is Better than One and chatting with Leong.

Had dinner with Melvin and Leong just now at pizza hut. That explains this post's title . lol. It was fun, talked a little about this and that. Were cracking our brains to order what to eat. We finally ended up with Pizza Hut's latest pizza, fish something something. We didn't hang out long, it was around 1 1/2 to 2 hours. But it's fun though. Talked about craps. Checking on each other new phones. Yea, it was fun.

Yea. It's something like that I'm looking forward after we go our separate ways. Just a simple dinner and keeping one another updated about our plans in life. We made so many promises, but not much is kept. I mean, it's not easy to keep that all. So, a simple breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner, whatever you call, it's enough.

If we manage to do that, I'm happy. It's a blue-sky-filled-with-colourful-balloons kind of happiness.

It's a happiness I found from you :)

-White Horse-

X,
Sha

A Night out

2010-05-02T19:01:00.002+08:00

It's 2nd of May. Yea. Time flies. One more week I'll be back to school and there we go again, a normal-uniform-high-school-student =p I'll know where they locate me by tomorrow. I hope they'll let me stay in Munshi. I don't want to drive so far everyday. Sigh.

Went to Jacklyn and Sharon's house last night. It was ok. Met some friends and well, chat a little. Saw Ms.Lim, Ms. Goh and Mr. Khoo too last night. And wow, news spread fast and wide. lol. I'm cool with that though. Those teachers are great, they concern about their students.

While I was at their house, Aaron came over and discussed something with my dad. But didn't get to meet him. Maybe will arrange a yamcha 'session' on Wednesday before school re-open. Then when for lamb chop for supple with mom and dad =p

Then today I drove to Giant with mom and dad to buy cooking oil and stuffs. Have been watching Fast and Furious for 3 times this week =p That movie made me speed a little on the road and get scolded. Blame Vin Diesel. lol.

Alright, that's all for today. Will keep you posted for more!

-Listening to Who I am- Nick Jonas-

X,
Sha

遇到

2010-04-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

1、遇到你真的爱的人时，要努力争取和他相伴一生的机会！因为当他离去时，一切都来不及了！

2、遇到可相信的朋友时，要好好和他相处下去，因为在人的一生中，可遇到的自己真的不易！

3、遇到人生中的贵人时，要记得好好感激，因为他是你人生的转折点！

4、遇到曾经爱过的人，记得微笑向他感激因为他是让你更懂爱的人！

5、遇到曾经恨过的人时，要微笑向他打招呼，因为他让你更加坚强！

6、遇到曾经背叛你的人时，要跟他好好聊一聊，因为若不是他，今天你不会懂这世界！

7、遇到曾经偷偷喜欢的人时，要祝他幸福哦！因为你喜欢他时，不是希望他幸福快乐吗？

8、遇到匆匆离开你人生的人时，要谢谢他走过你的人生，因为他是你精彩回忆的一部分！

9、遇到曾经和你有误会的人时，要趁现在解清误会，因为你可能只有这一次机会解释清楚！

10、遇到现在和相伴一生的人，要百分百感谢他爱你，因为你们现在都得到幸福和真爱。

-Source: Facebook-

Voices for the souls

2010-04-26T12:06:00.006+08:00

Music is my life.
When you're down, feel like there's no one you can talk to,
You turn to music,
They heal you :)

When you're happy,
You listen to the particular songs.

Certain music bring memories,
They bring you back to memory land.

Music never failed to please me.

Chris Daughtry, his music and songs never failed to impress me. Seeing a big guy singing songs like that with a little rock elements? I simply love his music!!!

David Archuleta, I love his voice, he jumps up and down when he's singing. Awesome songs. Forever in love =p

Oliver James, I only heard of his Long Time Coming and Greatest Story Ever Told. But two is enough to impress me. Greatest Story Ever Told is a great wedding song=p
Melvin said it's very slow, but his dad likes it :) Good taste!

Adam Lambert, used to hate him. But his songs--well, not bad. Loving his fringe. I like this guy liner =p

Michael Buble, Awesome awesome songs from him. Brilliant!!

There's still a lot more, maybe next time :0

X,
Sha

A Doubtful Thought

2010-04-21T11:01:00.003+08:00

Lisa said it's time to start a new chapter. Yes, indeed. I guess we have all come to a point where we need to make a decision. It's either a huge transformation or a drastic change. Not much different between the two actually.

I applied for The Star scholarship a month ago. I wasn't serious at the time. Just playing around. Who knows, I've been short-listed for interview. My first reaction was of course, excited. I get to fly to Sarawak if I'm lucky. Then mom and I spent the next two days to find the perfect formal outfit. Finally, we have found one. It's a long sleeves shirt and a black skirt. Mom lent me her white heels :) It was freaking fun. We look into the mirror, wow, I seriously have the lawyer look. lol. I was stunned with the lawyer-look. Of course, I indulged in it :)

I spent the next few days doing some research in the net and made some phone calls. I realised it wasn't what I thought it is. It's actually way tougher than I imagined. It's a heck long of journey, process, whatever you call. All of a sudden, I wasn't gay about the interview neither do taking law.

I wore the very same outfit, and tried to get opinion from papa. He gave me 7.5 marks out of 10. Fair enough for me. Then, I was standing in front of mirror, right before the second I remove my shirt, my own eyes caught me. I stare right back into my own eyes and gave myself a cynic smile. 'Who am I kidding'?

Right at the moment, I felt like I've been forced to marry a guy that I don't love. Shot, right away, I know something wrong.

For now, I'm not sure I want it 100%, perhaps it takes time for my case. But I'll definitely think deep about it. The interview? What the hell, I'll go, I'll decide. But not instantly. Because I know whatever decision I make, I'll always have my loved ones back me up. So, I'm not afraid. I need to be exposed. And that's what I'll do :)

I hope when I look back into the mirror, I'll still see the very same me, but with a HAPPY smile :) Then, I know I'm doing fine.

X,
Sha

Solitary Monday Night

2010-04-05T21:05:00.003+08:00

Today, tonight to be precise, is kinda different from the other nights. Dad is out to work and mom is sleeping in the living room. So, yea, you can say that I'm all alone tonight. I like this feeling though. I wouldn't say I love to be alone. But sometimes, I just like to be alone, have to be alone. Like tonight. I've finished washing all the plates. Ah, somehow, it felt like an achievement. I prefer to do chores during the night. It's so quiet and peaceful. Only you and your running water tap.

Have been reading others' blog lately. Somehow, certain blogs bring back memories. Good and bad. I've made a lot of promises. Promises I can't keep. Promises I thought I would be able to keep. Promises that seem simple and yet enough to break a friendship. It was something huge that time. It was something hurtful even to mention it. I usually follow instincts. Because of that, my actions tend to hurt people. But I only do what I had to at that time. And I don't even know that it hurts. But somehow, it does.

I love past, memories, anything that got to do with it. Certain people think we should move forward, let the past go. I hold on these past memories. It's because I think it's our past that mould us to be who we are. It's something, an energy, a power to move you forward when you hesitate, when you're unsure, and uncertain.

I guess being solitude really gives me something to think about. It makes me feel different. Yes, I do enjoy tonight :)

X,
Sha

Something in between

2010-04-02T14:28:00.003+08:00

It's practically three months now since I finished SPM. More than that I think. Life has been pretty dull lately. The only thing in my mind now is studies. Where to go next. I can't believe I've been bugging by this for so long and yet I'm still uncertain of where to go next. It's absolutely two choices ONLY.
It's either Form 6 or Matrix. Frankly speaking, both of them look pretty much the same for me.

Matrix: I'll finish it faster I think. But to finish all of that in one year? I'm not capable in doing it I think. I've stop learning for almost three months, I don't even know how to start already. But em, think of its brighter sight, I don't have to stuck in high school anymore, and I can escape those co-curriculum. So, it's a 50% 50%.

Form 6: Gosh, Orientation week and stuffs. I have to work hard all over again to gain those freaking co-cu marks? I don't know if I can take it anymore. But I was thinking, if I were to go
Form 6, I'll go to Arts class since I'm not really going to do something with science after I graduate. Perhaps, that makes things easier? Again, it's a 50% 50%.

This is what people called dilemma. It doesn't feel good. Especially, when you feel like you're going it by yourself, it kinda upset me a little. But, they say go with the flow, no matter how worry you are, things still going to be settled down. I guess I just have to learn to accept and let things go naturally :)

X,
Sha

Dear John

2010-02-07T11:13:00.003+08:00

Recently, I'm obsessed with this book/movie 'Dear John'. I watched the trailer, haven't read the book, haven't watched the movie yet. This is the second book I'm obsessed with after the 'Time Traveler's Wife'. Some of the reviews of this movie is not that good, compared to the book, but em, I'll still go for it.
'Dear John' is a novel written by Nicholas Sparks(Author of the Notebook) few years back. It's such a shame that I only know its existence weeks ago. Still trying to find the book before I watch the movie. The movie starring: Channing Tatum and Amanda Seyfried.
Here is the synopsis, I think you'll like it, if you like romance:

Director Lasse Hallström and screenwriter Jamie Linden collaborate to adapt author Nicholas Sparks' novel about a young soldier who falls for an idealistic college girl. Savannah Curtis (Amanda Seyfried) was on spring break when she first met John Tyree (Channing Tatum), who was home on temporary leave. For the smitten soldier it was practically love at first sight. Over the course of the next seven years, when each deployment seemed more treacherous than the last, the love letters that Savannah sent to John were one of the only things that kept him going. However, those loving and heartfelt correspondences would ultimately yield consequences that neither the brave soldier nor his one true love could have ever foreseen. ~ Jason Buchanan

Have fun! Love,
Sha

A little updates

2010-02-05T15:15:00.003+08:00

It's Friday afternoon. Not sure what to do, so I stopped by here, and maybe write something down. I'm not sure what is going to turn out, but em, hopefully, something good. Have been here for a couple of times. But em, nothing seems to be written down here. It always started with a few words but ended up with the keypad stated there' backspace'. Words don't seem to be written out from me lately. Lack of inspirations I think. Sigh. There's so many things in my mind, but em, I don't know how to express them in words. Writing without inspirations is really a pain. *I'm having hard time to continue here* Maybe it's because I don't have much going on lately, that's way words don't seem to be uttered out.

I'm longing for some time for my own lately. I don't feel like picking up calls, talk, or even laugh. Believe me, laughing can be very tiring if you laugh like I always do. Sigh. I went out to shopping malls for these few days. Trying to find a pendant. Not just any pendant. But em, it's the shape of a snowflake. I want it to be in crystal form or made from diamond. Or something very ancient yet elegant looking one. When the sunlight penetrates through it, then it shines, so brightly. Aww, that'll be really nice. But em, it's not that easy to find it over here, not a nice one I mean. I did see one in MP, but it's made from glass I think, it was not bad, but em, a little bit too small. I want a bigger one, and it'll be hanging on my neck 24/7. I don't know why, but I've always wanted a snowflake pendant. Uh. It's so true, a longer period of time is needed to get a good stuff.*Still, I can't get a nice one yet*

That's all for today, see ya next time.
Sha

Touchie Touchy

2010-01-22T14:57:00.002+08:00

This post is totally inspired by someone I love dearly.
It's something that you said or wrote touched me, tremendously.
This post may be short or long, depends on how you look at it.

Something happened, things that need you to get involved with. It's not because you get involved that touched me. It's the way you solve that makes my heart beats. It's pretty shocking how well you know me despite I've been a total myth and keeping stuffs to myself. I've not been talking much about myself especially emotionally. I don't like to keep it open and talk all about it unless it's necessary. Well, sometimes you like to make fun of me especially about my 'love life'. But em, I'm not a big fan of it. I've always been a rigid and conservative minded kind of girl. Indeed, it's annoying when you do so. As time goes by, it kinda build up a barrier in me, in my heart and mind. That definitely mould me into someone that don't speak much about what I really feel.

And as for relationship, I've never get involve in it so far. Getting into a relationship is pretty common for nowadays teens. But nah, again, I'm not a huge fan of it. I've always have a thought that getting involve in a relationship it needs commitment. It ain't easy to have one. It's like getting in a relationship, you are tied up. It just doesn't seem right for me now. Seeing people around me getting in and falling out of love just makes me hold on on my thought firmly.

And em, this is pretty much I want to tell. Poor thing, I've born for 17 years, and yet you know so little about me (emotionally). *Laugh Out Loud* It's always great to have someone like you to take care of my problems. I'm truly glad and blessed to have you in my life. Love you.

P/s: You. yes you. Only get emo with me through electrical devices, not personally. You know how shy I'll be =P *Laugh Out Loud* Well, you know, after all, I'm not ready to get rid of my barriers yet. But em it's just the matter of time. The time will come :)

06/01/10 outing

2010-01-07T11:18:00.002+08:00

Finally, after being caged in house for a few weeks we went for a movie yesterday. (Exciting) Boon Xian came with his Kancil and fetch Carine, Gun, Dieh, and me. We went McDonald to take some bites before the movie starts.

Avatar is so so nice!!! Those Na'vi are so BLUISH and HUGE!!! Of course, Jake Sully is kinda cute. This movie is a little touching. This movie kinda reminds us of what is going around this world. Human beings tend to destroy other habitats or what so ever to get money and luxuries. People are killing mother nature blindly. People has lost themselves, their inner self in this materialistic world. Human beings can be so cruel and shallow-minded.

Moral Values: Stop killing blindly(human/animals/trees..)
Remember, What goes around comes around

So, I think this movie deserves 9.5.

Later, we went to play Basketball and Paired Hockey Match at Jusco. I was so nice and exciting!!! Of course Gun scored the highest among us. And so, this fun outing ends here!! Pointer for the day 9.5!

Looking forward for another outing:
Shasha

I'm Yours

2010-01-06T11:18:00.002+08:00

I'm Yours
~Beautiful song by The Script~

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap you thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours

17th now!!!

2009-12-25T16:04:00.016+08:00

I've just turned 17th yesterday. Which means I'm getting older. *Sigh*Received a lot of wishes from friends and families through call, sms and facebook.( Thank you so so much)
Hmm, 17th now. Which means I'm grown up, gotta do and learn more things and ready to take responsibilities by myself. Going to take driving license afterwards. That's so much to do when you turned into 17th!! Anway, welcome to 17th!!!

Here's some picture:

It's a nice box for cake =p

Birthday/X'mas cake? lol..

I had a cake like this when I was 5/6 years old.

*Love him*

*Love Her*

*Love both of them muchie muchie*

*Love them all*

That's all for today.
Have a nice day to all..
Love,
Shasha

Flame of Forest

2009-12-16T17:01:00.004+08:00

This is a little something that I've promised to myself to search after exam. Couldn't remember whether Ms. Toh or Mr. Charlie told us about this 'Flame of forest'. It really caught my attention when he/she talked about it! Indeed, it's nice. However, the seeds are poisonous. So, beware of it. *Laugh Out Loud*Here goes the pictures of the 'Flame of Forest'.

That's all for today!! Have a nice day:)

Hugs:
Shasha

O.o

2009-12-12T18:40:00.002+08:00

I'm not good in keeping in touch .
At the same time, I don't want to lose it all.
I hate when friendship alters into something else.
I wish I'll be better in doing this.
I wish,
I wish..

This is it

2009-12-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

This post is entitled 'This is it'. It's because, this is the moment, this is the time, this is it.
Oh mi gosh. It's really hard to believe that high school is finished. 5 years of time in SMK Munshi Abdullah. *Blink*Time flies. Back in form 2, I really can't wait for high school to finish. Wishing to leave this school and head to a better one. I wished to break away, spread my wings and fly away. Wished to grow up so badly. Now? Well, I'm no longer that kind of girl. I've grown up.
It's irony. The older you grow, the more you wish to stay as a child. The closer you're with departure, the more you wish you're just starting it.
I'm so close with the departure now. I don't wish to change anything that I've done. I just wish time will pass us by slowly so that we're able to achieve and fulfill our dreams and goals in life.
Now SPM is finished, one of my dreams is accomplished. I really wish I'll score well. Even if I don't score well, so what.. I've tried my very best. So, just let it be..It's really the process that is important. During this torturing period, I realized what is the most important in my life. LOVE and SUPPORTS. I remember the night before my first paper, I was really nervous and crying. My parents and sis were there to support me and give me the strength to carry on. Mom and dad will kiss and hug me in the morning and wish me luck. As for friends, they'll text you and wish you all the best from the bottom of their hearts.
*This is what I cherished the most among this period of time*
Okie dokie, it's midnight now, gotta get some sleep, wish each one of you all the best ^^

Love and Kisses,
Shasha
8/12/09

P/s: Yes..WoooHoo..Yeay~~SPM is finished..It's time to get some fun, honey!!

Diary before SPM

2009-11-08T14:19:00.003+08:00

Wow, today is officially ten days away from my SPM!!! I know I shouldn't have logged in, and blogging. But,well, need a break from this life..So, I'm trying escape from my life through blogging for a little short while. Hmm, it's amazing you know, I haven't finish my syllabus yet. Compared to PMR, I think I've finished it month before the exam. It's weird to see how things have changed so drastically. I've been working quite hard starting from last year. Getting the 'Sijil Kecemerlangan' is actually a motivation for me. To motivate me to do better. It does feel good to be confirmed by others about your success. Of course, there's quite a lot of times that I didn't get it.. It's kinda devastating to be honest.I don't know how far is true, maybe it's because I've been pushing myself since last year, and now I'm starting to lose my passion in studies..(OMG..Gotta be kidding!!..It's serious though)

I'm at the point of giving up, but still pushing myself to continue what I've started. This life is mine. This is my life. No one is going to be there to help me for the rest of my life. I have to take control of it..And that's what I'm trying to do..

Hmm, i gotta admit I have problem with time..They seem too little for me..That's the reason why I've been skipping school recently, to study. At the same time, I' having hard time to deal with my inner feelings. Melvin said I've been neglecting friends since I've been skipping school. He said we don't have much time left with them and yet I'm still skipping school. I know he got his point. I feel the same way too to be honest. I'm not perfect, I can't balance between both of it.. And so, sometimes, I chose to neglect my dearly friends by skipping school, and by seeing time past by without them , I does hurt.

I was looking at the paper my classmates wrote to me the other night. They wrote down their contact numbers and some lines which touch me tremendously. I was reading the paper written by our dearly Qinyi. Surprisingly, my tears rolled down upon my cheeks. I was really shocked. His words touched me? I was asking to myself. Well, part of it. I realized that, I was missing his sense of humour, and will always miss that. I was thinking how to survive for the rest of my life without them as my classmates. And I saw what Melvin wrote to me. It's written there' will always call one another. At least once a week' .Yea, I still remember when we made that promise. And I proceed to the next one, one by one. Hmm, I'm really going to miss high school's life.

I'm glad to have a class reunion after this, I can imagine how it goes. :)

Ok, till then..Tata..The next post should be after SPM... Since I'm leaving this blog for quite a while, I'm giving you guys a BIG KISS!!! MUACKS!!! Don't forget to visit me after SPM and STPM guys!!!

BiG kIsSesS fRoM
sha sha^^

Smile :) by Uncle Kracker

2009-10-18T12:18:00.000+08:00

A very nice song.
Simple lyrics with a thousand meaning.
Smile guys :)
Enjoy!!

Life 1

2009-10-17T01:22:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, as I promised, here I come with this post.

I don't really know what I should write here. I am not running out of things to write. In fact, there's to much to be written out. Where should I start? Many things happened since I'm 'disconnected' with the internet world. Let's start with now:

Life has been pretty hectic lately. Trial, diagnostic test, exercises, add maths!! Seriously, I can barely breathe. Life is getting complicated, complicated, and complicated. Faith and trust seems to fade day by day. How is it possible to go on with life when I'm losing these two important elements. I'm really tired. I'm tired of this and that.

Despite of all those heart-breaking and emotional feelings, I have something else. I have you! Yes, you. I have supports from sis, mom, and papa, and of course my friends. They have been my best medicine and supports.. They are addictive, just like drugs!! They are the one who always keep me motivated especially sis!! *Sab, touch?? lol*

And yea, of course, there's time we broke down, fall, and failed. The most important is to get up and get back on the track. Tomorrow will be a better day. Just hold on to this, and you'll be alright.

p/s: I didn't expect what I've written up here. I thought it would be something very sad, it wasn't want I plan. And yes, I'm shock, how the negative thoughts can turn into this. Mood is swinging 24/7.. lol..

Okie guys, till then, see ya next time:

Xoxo,
Sha

Hey

2009-10-10T12:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the long silent!!
I promise new post will be coming up very soon..
And I mean very SOON!!!
Till then, toodles :)

Love,
Sha sha

Dawn vs. Dusk

2009-08-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

Out of a sudden, just feel like posting a post about this.
I definitely prefer dawn than dusk.
Even though both of them give no big difference from sight view,
Somehow, there's a big, huge difference between them.

Dawn kinda gives me the feeling of hope, rebirth, start of something new..

~Dawn~

While dusk,
Seems to be the end for the day, twilight year, hopeless and alone..

~Dusk~

Sadly,
Both of them are just too short to behold~

Love,
Shasha

One day off

2009-08-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

When you read this title, i supposed you know which day I'm talking bout:) It was 2oth of August. ELS organized a trip to Kuala Lumpur. We didn't want to go at first as trial is coming up. Plus the H1N1 case..Somehow, we went because there's too little of us that will be going. And so, we went. It turned out to be quite fine. We managed to snap some photos and went Old Town for our dinner^.^ We went to the art exhibition, Mid Valley, Beryl's Chocolate factory and The Mines..So, here's some photo's that we took:

Awesome painting by Mr. Liew Choong Ching:

Photos with my dearly friends:

That's all for today!!! Peace and have a nice day!!

Love,
Shasha

H1N1

2009-07-30T10:24:00.000+08:00

Hey, guys.I have been updating blog quite often lately. Yea. School is closing for one week, 6 days to be exact due to H1N1. I'm not feeling well since last week. So, went to check last week, everything was alright(The doctor said). Then, I starting to feel better and ate a lot of 'garbage'. We bought the Asian type 'French fries' from Koperasi. Oh yea, for two days i think, then worsen the conditions already.

So, we went to checked again yesterday. WHAT THE FISH!! Body temperature is 39 degree. The doctor said' My dear, you have to be very careful, drink lot and lot of water' . Then I was like, ok..That's a little scary...So, after we took the medicine from counter and paid for the bil, we went back..

Before I went to check, I received calls and smses from several friends..Which is very touching..

-As usual sis will call from UM then she'll tell what happened in the U and asked how we're doing.

-Then, Aaron called. Chat..Then somebody was calling him and we hung up..

-Patrick called..She said:Hey sha, how are you, Ming shu said you're not feeling well..See doctor already?Take care' (something like that)

-Then when I was waiting for the doctor, Manda called. She said: 'Sha, are you ok? Aaron told me you're still coughing..Take care.Tell me what the doctor said.. (Again, something like that..lol)

-The Dieh text me: 'Hey dear, how are you now'

After that, I replied them and told them what the doctor said..Then Aaron called again:
Aaron: 'Hey Shah. See the doctor already? How was it?'
Sha: Ok la, haven't die yet..

Then he said he's going to watch movie with Patrick.( I cut out the embarrassing part, Aaron..lol)
So, I talked to Patrick.
Patrick: 'How'?
Sha: Ok i think...Enjoy your movie..

Back to Aaron..

Sha: What time your movie start?
Aaron: 10.30 p.m..Okla..You take care..Have a good rest..
Sha: Ok..Bye

(Those conversations are not complete as I couldn't remember..lol)

I took my medicine..All of a sudden I felt so lonely. Thought of calling
-Ming Shu*Let her rest la, so late already*
-Dieh*She might be sleeping at this time, not a night owl*
-Manda*I think she's spending time with her family*
-Sab*Call her, I'll cry,sob*
-Mel*He didn't reply me sms, might be busy*
-Aaron*Watching movie*
Patrick*Watching movie with Aaron*

So, I didn't call anyone. I listened to Red fm and read 'Diary of a young girl'. I couldn't sleep well. Kinda afraid will never wake up again..

Ok..That's all for today! My friends, thank for those calls and smses. You don't know how much it means to me..Take care~~

Love,
Shasha

Diary of the day

2009-07-27T14:08:00.000+08:00

27/07/2009
Monday
Rainy Day

It's 2.10 p.m. I just got back from school about 45 minutes. I had two papers todays..English and Modern maths. It was raining when were doing the modern maths paper.. It was really heavy downpour. RAINING CATS AND DOGS!! Everyone was kinda pissed off, seeing their graph papers getting wet..Those who sat near the windows had to move to the other side a little. However, it was real nice. I mean, the weather is very windy and it got me into the emo emo mood..LOL...

The wind blew, I closed my eyes...
I was trying to feel the tenderness...
Somehow, I'm struggling...
Struggled to feel it..
I failed to feel it..
Perhaps, the burdens were too heavy at that time?
And once,
I tried again..
I could feel a little this time..
I tried for the next few times..
I really felt it this time...
The feeling was really good..
It's beyond words to explain..

So I guess what I'm trying to say is: We have to try. Again, again, and again..Yes, there'll not be instant results..It always take time to see the results. I could feel the calm, serenity, tranquil even though it was thundering and in the middle of the exam(not really good to do that actually, in the middle of the test..lol)..So, be strong.. And pick up the pieces when it all shattered apart..There's always ups and downs in our life..Failure in studies, jobs, families, friendship, relationship.. The only thing that can fix things up is you, yourself..Overcome it, appreciate it, seize it.. Try it, do it with your heart and soul....There's always a miracle..You just have to work it out and keep believing in it...

p/s: Sorry for getting a little bit emotional..Haha..Have to study for the next paper already..If i didn't score for mod maths,well, blame the wind..(Joking lar)Lol...Wish me luck babe~

Love,
Shasha

Here I come!!

2009-07-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

I know..I'm sorry!! I didn't update anything for a really long time..Not really in the mood of updating blog. Plus, i'm freaking busy..Ok, so, i'm gonna sum things up for these few months in this post..Here it goes:

We had a chess competition on the 11th of July..I was the MC...XD... It was really hectic as I don't really know the rules and blah blah...So, it was kinda stress..Then, surprisingly, it turned out to be quite ok..(For the first time, consider ok la..Muahaha) Even thought that day was really busy, somehow, I still gained something..Something I would say PRECIOUS and PRICELESS..After the competiton, we stayed back to clear up the mess and take pictures...Oh god, it took FOREVER to get the particular shoot done...Haha..All of us squeezed at the small counter..It was really nice..Oh, after that, before we go back...(There comes the best part) The girls hugged each other...And then, a huge group hug...Oww, I really like it..Then i hugged Dieh..Somehow, it makes me sad that knowing we're going to be apart soon..Compared to the others, the hug lasted for quite long.XD..Kok Seong and Aaron were literally speechless, (i think so) seeing the girls group hugging and making all sorts of odd sounds..LOL..That day ended up pretty late, about 6 something, if i'm not mistaken..

*Rehearsing the MC thingy*

*5 Science 1-2009*

*Dieh and Sha*

* The Gurlz*

*This is the particular shoot*

13th to 14th of July, we went to Motivation Camp at Sg. Rambai, Melaka...Cikgu Ramli drove us there as the buses can't fit in anymore... So, the journey was kinda comfortable..With the air-conditioner and no squeezing.. Ya, pretty nice~Then, they took me hp away, I literally disconnected from the outside world..(I realized i can survive without hp, but not for long..lol) Then, they gave us a talk as usual, then we had a night walk at the jungle at one in the morning..Very insane, but fun indeed..We were covered with mud and sweat..Then, we took our bath around 3.30 in the morning. (OMG infinity) The 'best part' woke up at 7 something...They supplied us 6 meals a day..But still very hungry..

Bad news...My phone had some problems...So, i sent it to re -formate..It really makes me sad because all the messages will be gone..I kept around 800 messages because I have this habit. I'll re-read the messages when i'm free..And then i'll try to re-call what happened that time and i'll be smiling..(I know it sounds weird, but it's nice to do so)!!But now,no..gone!!! Vanished!! Ish!!! Maybe it's time to let go already..Fine, will try to move on..Sob sob..

Oh well..That's basically what happened recently..Don't worry, will always keep you update with the latest news...Till then, see ya..

~Shasha~

L.O.V.E

2009-07-12T07:57:00.000+08:00

-SOMETHING ACROSS THE NET
-I think yoi'll like it
-Enjoy

❤❤❤也許愛情是一部憂傷の童話❤❤❤

♂放棄一個很愛你の人並不痛苦♀
♂放棄一個你很愛の人那才痛苦♀
♂愛上一個不愛你の人那是更痛苦♀

♀逃避不一定躲得過♂
♂面對不一定最難過♀
♀孤單不一定不快樂♂
♂得到不一定能長久♀
♀失去不一定不再擁有♂

★愛是一種是思念★
ღ無論何時何地當看不到她/他の時候會想念她/他ღ

★愛也會是一種擔心★
ღ當他/她出事の時候你會比誰都著急ღ

★愛是一種包容★
ღ你會包容她/他所有の缺點在你眼裡他/她永遠是最完美のღ

★愛更是一種回憶★
ღ當你想起她/她做出可愛浪漫の事時會不知覺の傻笑ღ

★覺得好甜蜜好甜蜜★
ღ你體會到了嗎如果沒有就放棄重新開始吧祝福你ღ

Inspiration of two

2009-06-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

Listen, 聆听
to the song you hear in my heart. 我的心声
Listen,
to the voices that run through my head.

Touch, 触碰
my heart with yours. 我的心灵
Touch,
a girl with your thought.

Feel, 感受
what i'm feeling. 我的感受

Share, 分享
everything with me. 你的所有

and

Hold, 牵起
my hand with yours... 我的手

Then,
I'll be with you, 我愿与你一起
till the very end.. 直到永远ღ.....

p/s:Expression of me and a very best friend of mine, dieh^.^

~First~

2009-04-17T15:02:00.001+08:00

I've tried.I've tried to write something more welcoming as this is the first post. Unfortunately, it doesn't turned out that way. Yea, i guess i know the reason. It has been quite a hectic year. But, I won't blame it on exam. This year has been a huge metamorphosis. All the negative one. Gosh, everyone seems sad and depressed. Friendship is shaky, studies is average and terrible at times.. Gosh, what happened.. I thought last year was pretty sucks..This year even worse. Oh dear, I know I should not indulge in this condition. Or else, i'll sink. Sink to the bottom. That's not what I want. It's time, time to get up, pick up the pieces..I know it's never easy but I'll try.....

Ps: Thanks guys for picking me up and the advise..
I like it when we shared our problems that day..
I'll always love you guys~